Sleep & Sitting

So, enough is enough of this not sleeping through the night business! For the last few nights we have been working on getting Nate to sleep through the night. I think it's been about four nights, and of all of those nights, one has been a success. I'll take it. Even though I don't sleep through the night no matter what (will I ever stop worrying and just get some rest already!?!). The other nights he's up 2-3 times. Sometimes he wakes up, cries for a minute and is then back to sleep. Other times he cries and cries and my heart just breaks, because now, instead of going in and rocking him back to sleep or giving him his pacifier, I am letting him cry it out. If he cries for 15 minutes, then I go in there and let him see me, so he doesn't feel abandoned, but I don't touch him or talk to him (which it is very difficult not to console your crying baby) and then I walk out. If it's before 5am, I won't get up to feed him. So far, it really hasn't improved. Sometimes he'll cry for a minute or two, sometimes 15, and sometimes longer. Although I don't know that I'm going to let it get longer than 30 minutes. Last night he woke up at 4am. I went in there at 4:15am because he was still crying. He saw me, which mad him more upset that I wasn't picking him up, so he cried even harder. He would start to calm down and then just start screaming again. This went on for another 15 minutes, until I went in there and picked him up and fed him. It was close enough to 5am, right? So I probably have reversed all the work we have done over the last few days, but this is hard. So we will see how tonight goes. I'm hoping that each night he will wake less often and go back to sleep sooner.

This past Friday I went down to watch Jaime's boys because their sitter needed the day off. Jeremy was taking off work early, so I wouldn't be home with them until evening and I thought I should be able to handle it. It was actually easier than I thought it would be. Of course Lucas is easy. I couldn't get the babies to nap at the same time, but at least they always had a bed to sleep in! I like spending time with the boys and I haven't gotten to spend as much quality time with Landon as I would like (or as much as I did with Lucas when he was a baby) and so it was good to get to know him better too. When Jeremy got home from work, Nate was still sleeping and so Lucas and I went in their room to watch cartoons and I think a fell asleep for a few minutes. I've been exhausted lately--I think it's all finally catching up with me--I even took a nap yesterday when Nate did! When Jaime got home from work Jeremy cooked some burgers out on the grill. I wish we lived closer so we could have dinners and get togethers more often, but I'll definitely take the hour drive over the 12 hour drive! And even though we may not live in the same city, we are close enough to be able to see each other and watch our kids grow up together. And I am grateful for that.