Exhausted but Okay

I now have Nate in my lap, but the let the record show he just slept in the play yard for 20 minutes! Small victories. So yes, he currently will only sleep with me, or some morning naps in his swing. Although I don't usually try to even put him in his swing at night. I'm so tired it's just easier to stay put. I know, bad mommy. But right now sleep is precious and if I'm doing something wrong, then so be it. I'm doing this all by myself, which so far seems to be the biggest struggle. It's hard to never get a break, no one to come home from work in the evening to help me. So if I don't do things according to the book, well that's okay by me for now. We're just working on getting through each day. Although I have to say, as exhausted as I am, I just look down at his precious little face and it makes it all worth it. And while it's hard when he has to be held all the time, I couldn't pick a better person to snuggle up with all the time. I do have plans to eventually get him to sleep in his bassinet, but just in time. Maybe after my Grandma comes to stay with me and I have a little help then I will attempt those things that risk further sleep loss.

He took an extremely long nap this afternoon, and several failed attempts at waking him, he's now up. Exactly what I was afraid of. I've been working on switching his schedule and the last few nights have been successful. He used to be awake from 11pm to 1am and I got him used to being up from 9pm-11pm. Then after that it's up every 2 hours through the night. Well, it's almost 11pm now and he's up. Looks like we're in for a long night.

He had a doctor appointment this week. He's now up to 9lbs 10oz. Such a good little eater. Everything else was good-the doctor said he looked nice and healthy.

So while we're tired, we're doing okay. Honestly, the biggest struggle is not taking care of him by myself, but the lack of company. Michael was only home for 2 weeks, but in those short 2 weeks, I got really used to having someone in the house again. I guess it's just getting used to his absence again and getting into a routine with Nate. Each day at a time.