In His Own Bed

I ordered the angelcare monitor, which detects motion, to put in Nathan's bassinet. Since he won't sleep on his back, it's the only way I figured I could have him sleep in his bed and not on me. This allows me to put him on his belly to sleep and not have to worry about SIDS, since the monitor detects breathing and will alarm if there's no movement for 20 seconds. The first night we tried it out was Wednesday. It was a horrible night! He would only sleep for an hour at a time. Last night went a little better with him sleeping in 2 hour stretches. I think he just needs to get used to sleeping in his bed and not with me. Although it is extremely difficult to keep putting him back in that bed when I know I could get a good amount of sleep if he just stayed with me. But I know this way is better for him and for me. I don't really get good sleep when he's with me and he is safer when he's in his own bed. So we'll just keep at it and eventually I think it will get better. It is hard to go backwards and I wish I had the monitor from the time he was born, but I guess that's the way it goes.

My grandma flew in from Arizona on Wednesday. She has been an enormous help, even if she may not realize it. I'm actually eating meals! That in itself is a big accomplishment around here. And if for no other reason, it is nice to have the company and someone in the house to talk to. It is really good to see her. I haven't seen her since my wedding, which was 2 1/2 years ago. She's going to stay with me a month so it will be nice to have her here through the holidays as well.

The dogs, well, the dogs are on my last nerve. Yesterday they escaped from the yard so I had to go fix the fence. They bark and wake the baby. I love them, but they are definitely testing my patience. I just need to get through these first few months. I know right now is going to be difficult with everything, and they're not helping the situation, but I try to stay hopeful that it will all be better soon.

It is definitely harder not having Michael home. In the short amount of time that he was home, I got used to him being here. It has been difficult to talk on the webcam with his schedule and now that I have Nate. So we've been relying on emails to keep in touch, which isn't the same, but I guess I can't complain. It could be worse. I am looking forward to the day he comes home for good, that's for sure.